I am angry.

I am angry.

Please stop trying to change my mind or my actions every time I take a decision that makes me happy. I am doing my best to follow my path, to give the best of me in every step I take. I read, I listen, I meditate, I follow good advice, I am flexible, I learn from mistakes, from struggles, every decision I take is a step forward in my growth; please respect my will and don't treat me as if there had not been a wise reflection before my conclusions. Please stop trying to ruin every dream, every project I share with you before I even start taking any action. Please stop pushing, and pushing, and insisting, and insisting to change me. I am not trying to change you, I am changing myself, that is all I can do, and it is not that easy, it takes a lot of courage and inner work, and I am just asking for respect. 

I love to share my ideas, my inspirations, my learning, and I am aware every present “conclusion” is not the final one, it is just another step in my journey. I am willing to keep changing, to keep exploring, testing, growing, learning, listening and following the guidance of my own heart.

I love to listen to your opinions too, they are all welcome, but just don't impose them, they are just opinions. I will take them into account among all the other options my research, experiences and intuition have presented to me, and then I will take my own decision, but that is my job, not yours. Stop insisting and pushing.

If you cannot control yourself and you just keep interfering and judging every movement I make, I will just stop sharing my ideas with you, I will just stop spending time with you. It is very exhausting, frustrating and blocking to feel your invasive and draining vibrations all the time. My health and balance cannot tolerate it anymore and now I stand for my health, my balance and I give priority to my needs. It is my life and I am willing to live as happy, healthy and balanced as possible. I believe that life is very simple, you just need to live and let live through Love, Respect, Inner Peace, Compassion, Forgiveness, and Creativity. And I really believe that kindness matters, towards others, but especially towards oneself.

I am angry, I am expressing it, I let go of any resentment and of course, I forgive you all, but leave me alone if you are not willing to respect my healing. If you really want to help, you just need to ask me how and I will let you know what feels right to me at that present time, and it might differ from next time you ask, because I am in the process of healing and my needs might vary in every stage of that process, but I cannot tell you beforehand, I just find out every answer as I flow with life. It is up to you to follow my guide or to let go and step back. Stepping back when you are not ready to help is also very helpful. You can come back when you have been through your own healing and are ready to help others. I really wish this writing can help those who struggle with invasive environments to stand for their own right to live in peace and harmony. Thank you all for being here. I send you all lots of love and healing energy!